Goodbye Heroin

Goodbye Heroin

You had me at hello the first time we met and I can still remember the very first time that I laid eyes on you

In my eyes you were just a $20 bet.

You were white and I had a crush on you

Everyone was into you

THEN

I had to crush you because you were just a tiny little pill

Big things come in small packages they say; RIGHT?

So up my nose you went

At that moment to me you were heaven sent

It was love at first sight so I married you early and remember that day January 12, 2008

The day my eyes were pinned and you literally took my breath away

You were the warmth in my veins

Taking away all of my pain

Nobody had ever been as close to me as you and I vowed to give you my life vein by vein

You promised me you’d always protect me

Never leaving my side

I always knew I could run to you

My Best Friend, My Love, My Life

You made me complete and finally the PERFECT Wife

You said you would never hurt me and always would keep it real

Then the day came and I realized I lost the bet and YOU heroin were out to kill

You took and took and took.... I gave you everything

My job, family, kids, and my best friend Nicole

Then you sick son of a donkey you turned around and took my soul

Two years into our marriage YOU turned me into your swinging wife

Selling me to anybody that would give you half price

Then that night came, you caught me off guard

All sick, twisted, panicking, and afraid

I sold the first girl....now I was no longer the slave

But I lost that bet too when I sold the wrong one .....Little did I know this would send me to my grave

I needed you so bad I called for your homies to bring me a small one

They came and picked me up and the night continued on.....

The drove me off some road near 20 mile bend

An open sugar cane field where my life was about to end

There I was with your three homies....

Now bruised, bleeding, beaten and raped

About to burn to death because I had seen #2’s FACE

The smell of gasoline and the burning on my skin

I begged them to just shoot me and get it over with

This was it for sure; I was about to die;

But finally for me the end and no more of this miserable life

It was time to see the grave

So, I buried my head in the muck and to myself said

God if you are there PLEASE don’t let me burn

At this very moment there would be no more

violence

The men left and for 2 days I laid there in that field; naked, alone, and nothing but silence

You know what heroin?

That little prayer 🙏 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

God please don’t let me burn

God heard me, He answered, and that’s the very moment my life took a turn.......

Why have I told you this?

Because you need to know that it’s been 11 years and this is the first and last time that I will ever say goodbye

I have found truth and complete freedom and you were nothing but a lie

You see 7 years ago- I met a man named Jesus and it’s now His blood that runs in my veins

I have surrendered my life to him and it’s no longer you who reigns

Unlike you heroin...

Jesus loves me this I know

And Yes the Bible does tell me so

He died for me so that I would have eternal life

He has restored everything

EVEN my HOPE of being a godly wife

I have learned that I MUST FORGIVE in order for my sins to be forgiven

It has taken me over 6 years and I’ve tested Jesus I won’t lie- He has kept TRUE never been left or forsaken

I have finally forgiven your homies and the hardest forgiven myself

There was still one left and that was YOU heroin- A.K.A. the “ex-spouse”

So now that we have been apart 7years this past January

The time has come for your funeral and these memories to be finally buried

I wish you could see ALL the DESTRUCTION in each persons life that you do

But some things will never change

So this is my goodbye letter;

The last thing I will say to you

Goodbye heroin you sick and twisted LIE

However, I’m grateful we met because of you I found my Saviour and today I am SURELY ALIVE

6 years I’ve lived completely free from you and today I forgive you but I choose not to forget

Now it’s time to say goodbye and move forward without any want or regret

As I am dancing one day and rejoicing in heaven

I will remember to praise God because you will be in Hell and forever you will burn!

Goodbye heroin there will be no more meet or greet

If by chance I happen to ever see you laying on a table or with your new homies or even people your still corrupting in the street

I will REMEMBER your ending is Hell

So there is no need to even say it...

But for the hell of it I will; I still forgive you and may you “Rest In Peace”.

By- Wendi Wetherington